Here’s the lovely book I talked about in our group today; relating to how the word “defilement” was originally used as a translation of the Pali word and then “hindrance” was adopted, but neither really work.
If you read this, you’ll see that we have to recognize and embrace what may seem unappealing to us:
Along the same lines of questioning what our teachers tell us, or really investigating what the Buddha was teaching, here’s this interesting article titled: The Myth of the Present Moment:
https://link.springer.com/article/10.1007/s12671-014-0333-z